emotional post ahead......
i'll be flying off in bout a month's time! but my dad has yet to find out. I'm feeling guilty much??!?! i'm like F.R.E.A.K.I.N.G SAD and guilty x 548752397727!!! there's some plus points to it though. so i conveyed to him like half hour ago. And my dad seemed real disappointed and all. it just makes me feel v.v.v.v.v.guilty. It's really something you can't amend with a billion dollar..haiiix...how i wish my family IS indeed a F.A.M.I.L.Y!! )):
i always find myself in a position where i have no one to talk to when it comes down to talking to someone at home. can't talk to my dad sometimes since it's kinda girlygirl thing only. and not my bro of course since he's still groooowing, and my mom? haix. no hope from her. talking to her is like talking to air. she simply doesn't get what i wanna tell and is conservative much?? so i always have to beat about the bush and use analogy to describe my feeling. YES! i'm a pathetic child. it's like living in a house where there's no roof? i wish i was braver to tell my mom that she could get a divorce. but this does no justice to my dad. i really can't bear to leave any of them even though i know that we are already living under "separate roofs". i wish my parents were more truthful towards each other. I wish they were more courageous in facing their feelings too. i really don't know how long more this will last. we are all on thin ice now and it's just gonna crack anytime. I'm scared! Each time i reach home, i'm just fearful something bad might just erupt. there's sooo much in me i can't finish. I just hope that we can end up like those in the typical fairy tale stories: "They lived happily ever after.........."
can i?????????
2 comments:
Don't worry!! Everyone has their own share of low and depressing times!! At least you have the courage to tell your dad today! Which is better than him knowing it at the very last minute!! Proud of you!!
Yup yup shir!!!明天会更好!Don't be depressed~
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